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[Jan. 22nd, 2007|01:21 am] |
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| [ | my mood |
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Wow....no one's posted anything in so long,it's weird.
Well i just thought i would write something in honor of 2 years ago tonight. That is when my dear & beloved family friend Chuck passed away. It's just so good to think about how he's in heaven and doesn't have to worry about cancer anymore. I still miss him sometimes,though.
Well just remember to enjoy what(or who)you have before it's gone-because you never know when that might be.
That's all i really wanted to say...and that God is awesome! <3 |
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[Dec. 20th, 2006|10:27 pm] |
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| | home! | ] |
| [ | my mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
| [ | my tunes |
| | hide & seek- IH | ] |
ha! yet again,it's been forever since i've written in this...and yet again so much has happened that i'm not even going to try to write about it all.
so i've thought about it and i've decided that i'm pathetic and life doesn't like me very much. in short-my computer gets ruined,my purse gets stolen,and the decent amount of money i once had is now completely gone. all of it. but still...i am alive and that's pretty awesome. i mean,i'm super glad for that-so since i'm alive,i don't think i should let a whole bunch of crap ruin my Christmas.
well anyway. ya know those thoughts you get where like,you want something to happen that's just so far from happening but you think it might be good if it did? but you really don't know,you just think it might be? like it seems impossible on so many different levels & for so many different reasons,but yet you still think about it? then again,it might not be good-but you never know unless it happened? does anyone besides me get thoughts like that? i just want to know. i mean it's kind of like you want it to,but you don't...and in another way,if it did,it might be scary. okay-sorry about that. just rambling. i'm pretty much a rambler-and you know that if you know me. ha,uh..that's why it's good i hardly ever write in this thing.
so i hope everyone is having a super Christmas break. be safe-there are bad & horrible people out there. love! <3 |
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| this isn't like us anyway |
[Oct. 26th, 2006|12:04 am] |
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| |  content | ] |
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| | the academy is-almost here | ] |
woa!! what's happened to livejournal?? it's gotten high tech on me,or something. wow.
well i think it's maybe time for an update. what to update about,though?
okay...well schoolwise,i found out i made a 101 on my second test in art history! that's two 101's in a row and i have no clue how i managed it. on another note,english and psychology are still pretty hard...test coming up in psychology-ew. those are so freaking hard it's not even funny,though i've only had one in there so far.
so,not schoolwise...i have a really busy weekend this coming weekend. then i'll be driving back on tuesday for halloween-being on tuesday-and coming back again on wednesday morning. ha. then there's this issue of me just now realizing that the deathcab concert is on a thursday night! my parents are psycho,mainly my mom,about me going all the way back home for something just for a night then coming all the way back here just the next day. because see...i so almost came home for the john mayer concert,but my mom went psycho and wouldnt let me come back. i guess im just too much of an honest kid to disobey and just not tell. so my point here is,if they wouldnt let me come home and go back again for jm,how could they for dc? it's the same situation,just a more important band...but they won't understand that. ahh! but i already have a ticket. oh well,who gives a crap-i'm going. that's final. i wouldn't miss dc in b'ham for the world.
oh...i'm trying this jones candy corn soda! ha,it's pretty cool. i mean it tastes just like candy corn. so if you're a big candy corn fan-you might even like it in liquid form!
well this is getting pretty long for a post from me,so i'm putting an end to it. hope everyone has a great rest of the week-2 days til friday! well,maybe technically 1. i don't know. just be glad.
love! <3 |
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[Sep. 20th, 2006|01:09 am] |
hey! i feel like writing something.
wow...it's so different being in college and all. hm,i think that's all i really feel like saying about that. i don't think my college experiences so far would be of any interest to anyone so much. not that it's been boring,cause it sure hasn't. i just don't want to write all about that,ya know.
so i'm looking forward to friday and the weekend. ha,i'm always looking forward to friday and the weekend. come to think of it,i don't hear of people going home as often as i do. honestly though,i love going home for the weekend. i get to see a lot of my friends who've stayed in birmingham that i don't get to see during the week...and it's just more fun there. why would i want to stay in tuscaloosa for the weekend? i guess game weekends are exceptions. still,i've come back every weekend-ha. there's a lot to do here,don't get me wrong,there's a lot...but i like birmingham better and my beloved people there.
ew,it's not a good taste after you've been chewing a piece of minty gum to drink juice. nope. don't do that.
good for you,the shoe is blackened too. more room for wanting to go fishing in the rain when all is clear and calm. to the breeze the air has nothing against it's will,silent and answering the darkness with one still voice.
oh man. please don't ask what that was all about,i couldn't tell you. i typed that in a matter of maybe 15 seconds. ha. we do this thing in our english class...we write in these journals for a certain amount of time,and we can't stop writing. even if we run out of things to say,we have to keep writing-we just write whatever comes to mind,cause humans never stop thinking about things. so i thought i would just type out whatever words came to mind at the second,haha. i just don't know how i got that. wow. that's semi-embarassing.
well that's about all for now,i think. i just had this random urge to make an entry. so i did. ya know...i think that's a good thing to remember for life. just follow those random urges,wherever they may lead. even if it's typing out 3 sentences of non-sensical crap onto a livejournal. i say go for it.
happy wednesday. love! <3 |
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[Aug. 8th, 2006|10:40 pm] |
| [ | my mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
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| | trs | ] |
time for another update,i guess.
well camp is over and i move into college on sunday. i don't even know if i'm excited about it yet. in a way i am,but i'm kind of not. i don't really know. i just wish there were more summer left and that i didn't have to worry about ONE thing for just ONE day. i've just had sooo much on my mind and i still have a LOT to do before this week can be over!!! aaaaaaahhhh!!!! ok,felt good.
so i just decided i want to learn how to swing dance...then swing dance to rock music.
guess what. birmingham is actually a really cool place,think about that next time you're downtown.
oh yeah,i'm not ready to leave everybody. it's gonna be so sad to not see my best friends every day! man...we better be the kind of friends who stay in touch. it makes me so mad to hear about people having best friends in high school,then moving to college and then hardly ever seeing them. that will NOT be me!! mark my words,all of you. i mean,what kind of friends just don't even make an effort to keep in touch?? that's just so sad for them...so sad.
well that's pretty much it for now. i'll leave you with this random picture instead of the verse of a song. enjoy. love!
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| quarterboy |
[Jul. 4th, 2006|01:27 am] |
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so i had a really good day...until tonight.
when i got home i was informed that one of our horses,quarterboy,broke his leg and they had to put him to sleep.
i knew that horse my whole life. he was so sweet and wonderful...and i loved him.
it's not fair!! it's not fair that a horse should have to DIE because he broke his leg! yes,he was older...but he had so much life left in him! he couldn't help it........it was just an accident.
"You never know what you've got til it's gone."
that's incredibly true. i regret it so much that i didn't take more time to go see him out at the barn....i took him for granted. now that he won't be there anymore,now that he's gone...only now do i realize what i had.
we do have another horse,tradewind,who i've also known my whole life. i won't take him for granted...not him. i'm going to try to see him whenever i can. mark my words.
just remember to never take anyone or anything for granted...because you never know when you might lose them. |
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| ...so long,sweet sunday... |
[Jun. 29th, 2006|12:24 am] |
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| [ | my tunes |
| | circa survive | ] |
wow,it's been a while again. i bet this is how i start all my posts...sad,though.
well camp has been tiring and stressful,but yet fun at the same time. i'm happy to be working there. i feel like i'm doing something worthwhile with my time. i can't believe it's already week 4 and camp is almost halfway over. or maybe it is already....ha,i dunno.
tonight was fun. jason schuck is awesome...let me just tell you that. jordan's okay,too. but jason might just be cooler. (feel any less lonely now,jschuck?) haha. no,but really. you should try a caramel vanilla frappuchino from starbucks. you won't find it on the menu,no...but try it. especially if you think caramel is just too sweet. the vanilla kind of tones it down. uh...just a suggestion.
so UA orientation began today. "freshman 8" if you will. it was actually okay...not half as boring as i thought it would be. it really wasn't bad at all. and i had a really superb lunch at the ferg. that's right-the food is all i look forward to. ha. you know it. yeah so tomorrow is the second day...when i register for classes. i'm hoping i can get all the ones i need. oh yeah! i did so bad on the math placement test!! i HATE math with a burning passion!! for real,come on. i just freakin graduated...people don't remember math during the school year-much less in the summer!! ok...well i don't. i hate math. hate hate hate. now i'm gonna have to retake that stupid thing. the only good part was that it's on a computer so there's no writing-except scratch work. but i hate scratch work,too. anything that involves math...even the letter m,the letter a,the letter t,and the letter h. yeah...you get the point.
well sadly enough,i have to awaken early in the morning in order to drive alllll the way to t-town to be there at 10. better than today-had to be there at 9:15. so therefore...i say goodbye for now.
goodbye for now. <3 |
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| summer...yeah!! |
[May. 27th, 2006|03:47 pm] |
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| | further seems forever | ] |
wow...it's been an insanely long time since i've updated. that means a lot has changed too...school is out,i'm graduated,about to start camp,typing this on a new laptop...and a lot of other stuff probably.
so it feels good to not have to go through any more high school classes...sitting there for long hours,just waiting for the bell to ring. of course,similar situations are likely to happen in college and i'm sure they will happen,but at least it's college...different classes,different teachers,different people-well actually that's the sad part. it's gonna be so sad to not see the same people every day. so let's not talk about that.
went to see wild sweet orange play last night at workplay and again-they were so awesome! aw,it was a great show. the great book of john played before them and they were really good too. so anyway...senior trip was awesome. it was nice to get away for a while. man,i love traveling. we should all just go back there...soon. ha. south carolina is one cool place.
well in all honesty there is not too much to update about. but if you even read all of this and are reading it now and you're a senior..then here are some words for you. it's part of a cool song and it seemed to me like a good "graduation song". ya know,the whole new phase of your life deal..and even if you're not a senior,or whatever we are,you should read them too. yeah...it's just a good song.
We live and we learn and crash and we burn and we're gone
We take what we know and we learn as we go and we run
Run until that day
We can see who we are
Have the final say
We keep being who we are
As love lights the way to the last day
And no one can take it away
Run and hide
Don’t hide at all
Change is coming, no its nothing personal
Live our lives
Now hide it all
Change is coming, no its nothing personal
We live and we learn and crash and we burn and we're gone
We take what we know and we learn as we go and we run
Run until that day
We can see who we are
Have the final say
We keep being who we are
that is that. well i hope everyone has a good week...just ya know,enjoy summer while it's here. |
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| oh my love,we could live on the sun... |
[Mar. 26th, 2006|07:05 am] |
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| |  sleepy | ] |
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| | eisley | ] |
where oh where has my spring break gone?? actually it's lasted a good while. it's been great not being in school and really just having no worries. so starting monday,it'll be time to welcome all those worries back into life. i'm sure you all can relate. it almost kind of sucks-spring break is in a way like a fake reality because you all of a sudden remember that you have a research paper to write,prom to stress over,classes to make good grades in,college crap to figure out,and so on and so on...after you have had absolutely nothing on your mind for a week. ok well,whatever. it's psychotically cold outside-that would have felt good 2 months ago. then again i guess it feels good,but it's spring break. so it's just kind of sad. did you know that squirrels are 43% more likely to attack you when it's raining? i didn't either...but i made that up,so it might not be true. ok well everyone have a good last day of breaking from school. love. |
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| always love,hate will get you every time |
[Mar. 5th, 2006|07:33 am] |
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| | nada surf | ] |
everyone be excited. by a pure miracle,i actually found a prom dress! i don't think anyone knows for real how picky i am and how long it would have taken for me to find one,had i not found this one. ha..oh man,i just feel insanely relieved. but that's only dress-wise.
anyway,tonight was fun. party at sampson's. some crazy happenings happened. wrestling matches,beach ball violence,joke-telling,funny conversations. it was pretty much awesome. oh yeah,my grandma has to drive my car all day tomorrow because her's is being psycho. isn't that weird? my 1980's blue oldsmobile-driving grandma...driving my explorer?? i think it's funny..but sad cause i won't have my car tomorrow. oh well,it's life. so i figured out how to shoot b&w on my digital. pretty pathetic that i've had it since december and i'm just now figuring this out...haven't had much time for things of that sort. but it's so cool! i absolutely love b&w photos. might post a few soon,if i can get some good ones. well..peace,love,and if you're reading this on sunday afternoon and don't know where to go for lunch,i suggest piccadilly cause that's sounds really good to me right now. so go,it's charming and delectable. |
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| no such thing as easy street |
[Feb. 16th, 2006|07:05 am] |
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well all that's new are more problems. there's so much on my mind...so many things i'm having to think about/am stressed about. college,career,car,parents,chemistry,research paper,goals not being reached,confusion,myself,crap.....and more crap,yes there is actually more. things really aren't going good at all,but i like to act like they are. if only things could just be easy. and i hate decisions. on the brightside,i'm alive. life is good-just not when it's full of problems. |
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| "..help me to dream these dreams because i don't have a clue" |
[Feb. 2nd, 2006|07:03 am] |
i'm confused again. i don't get why life has to be so complicated. i never really even doubted where i might be going to college until last night. now i am absolutely clueless,how pathetic..it's february. on top of that i'm not too sure what exactly i'll be majoring and/or minoring in. i know what i want to do-photography-but what to do with it is the question. i know everyone says, "just follow God's will for you life". but thats kinda hard when you don't know what it is! i didn't think i would have this much trouble just deciding where to go. all i know is that i don't want to go out of state. that's it. on top of that,school right now is stressful. we have a book report due soon on a book i haven't started yet,a research paper to worry about...and just school in general. again,i just wish i could run away from it all. anyway..i found these verses and i thought i would share them. they're really cool and it's a good reminder for me,or anyone who is where i am.
~Psalm 62:5-8~
For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence,
for my hope is from Him.
He only is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be shaken.
On God rests my salvation and my glory;
my mighty rock, my refuge is God.
Trust in Him at all times, O people;
pour out your heart before Him;
God is a refuge for us. |
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[Jan. 23rd, 2006|05:10 am] |
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( FLORIDA! ) |
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| winterish retreatism |
[Jan. 20th, 2006|03:58 am] |
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| | lonely | ] |
| [ | my tunes |
| | nothing,i'm lonely | ] |
well things are better now-thanks to a friend who helped me see things differently. i don't know why i would have let something so insignificant in the long-run make me like that. life is too short to be so consumed with one situation that doesn't go the way you planned. it really is,we need to keeep depression out of our lives. for real. but i won't lie,i'm still confused with a lot of stuff.
ok...moving on. WINTER RETREAT was awesome!!! we had the best speaker ever. he spoke at hs retreat 2 years ago. and there were good times...had by all. fun times with friends,and even with the speaker,matt-we had a nice conversation about good bands & good music. he's just so cool. that was the best winter retreat by far. i really learned so much. i hope i keep it with me. but not only that,i hope i can learn even more from it.
so tomorrow morning i leave to go to florida for my uncle's airforce retirement ceremony. i'm excited,i get to see my awesome cousins. and i get to miss school-so yay. oh yeah,then i come back home only to rush to get to a wedding. well i'm gonna have an interesting weekend,it looks like. i hope everyone else does as well. here's a piece of a beautiful song to leave you with:
Cheek to cheek cause he needs her
Hand in hand as he leads her
Face to face cause they know
They'll never dance alone
Cause everyone knows they're in love
Everyone knows they're in love
Yes and everyone knows they're in love
By the way they dance |
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[Jan. 12th, 2006|06:54 am] |
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school=disgusting. friends=confusing. life=hard. i hate stupid cycles. things go good,then great,then bad,then horrible,then even more horrible,then even more horrible,then better,then okay,then good,then great....then horrible. yeah. i'm pretty much sick of it. i wish i could run away to ireland,live on some green hills by the ocean,and just be alone forever. im not even kidding. i really do wish that. sorry to sound so depressing,but that's where the cycle is right now. i don't even understand it. well..just an update of my life. NOTE: previous poem actually applies now. every word. that was like a prophesy. |
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[Jan. 7th, 2006|07:07 am] |
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| | nostalgic | ] |
*even though i do not feel anything like this, i decided to be emo and write this poem.*
the windows are fogging, like they do in january.
snow has fallen somewhere on the earth.
my heart has something in common with this season,
it feels cold, with joy incapable of springing forth;
i'm drowning in this beautiful sadness.
the city seems empty, i have nowhere to go.
people run around, busy with the new year;
yet i see no one, my feelings are lost in oblivion.
disconnected from the world, yet i feel content;
i'm drowning in this beautiful sadness.
encompassed in a world of the past,
it seems i see nothing going on in the present.
as i walk, the memories follow, they haunt.
i try to escape them, i try and i try to no avail.
i'm drowning in this beautiful sadness.
those times are frozen in motion, frozen still.
though my heart feels warm to remember them,
even the sun can't be warm enough to melt away the past.
i remember, i long; it all seems so distant,
i'm drowning in this beautiful sadness. |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2006|05:12 am] |
| [ | my mood |
| | hopeful | ] |
| [ | my tunes |
| | the new year-death cab | ] |
"so this is the new year...."
i have to say that 2005 was insanely different from any previous year. i guess it just brought so many different things that i never expected. you could probably think of any adjective,seriously the first one that comes to your mind,and it would in some way describe 2005 for me. i'm not even kidding,i could put every adjective there is (maybe minus a few) into this: "2005 was...." and it would be true. haha,wow. it was absolutely crazy. but what's really weird is that i can't even tell if i liked it overall or not. i can't say,'well...2005 was good',or '2005 was bad'. i don't know what i would say. maybe it's in-between. i would have to overlook a lot of bad things to say that it was a good year,but then i would have to overlook probably more good things to say it was bad. ha...i really just don't know. one thing can be said for sure>i'll never forget it.
new year's are always exciting...you just really never know what they're going bring. i hope i can say that 2006 was an awesome year. i'm looking forward to seeing what it holds. i'm most likely going to say that 2006 was a whole lot different than even 2005...with college starting and all. ooh man,that'll bring some change. that's actually kind of sad for me,but change can be good. new starts can also be exciting. so i'm just gonna make it that way. well,those were just my thoughts on the past year and this brand new one. have a good rest of the break.
"....and i don't feel any different." |
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| "You have bewitched me body and soul..." |
[Dec. 28th, 2005|06:40 am] |
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| | guys should be like mr. darcy | ] |
christmas was great. yes,i must say it was wonderful. still is..in a sense. everyone brace yourselves..........i finally got a digital camera!! haha! i know...i can hardly believe it myself. black canon eos digital rebel xt. it's proving itself awesome thus far,let's hope it continues on that path.
IF YOU HAVEN'T READ ANY OF THIS YET,READ THIS>>>>>ok...here's a story for ya. picture this. i'm sitting there at o'charlie's innocently eating my soup (which by the way is insanely good). i put the spoon to my mouth,and as i look down into the bowl..i see something dark. now this dark something was not a potato (as it was potato soup),and it was not a burnt piece of cheese. i look closer and what do i find...but a spider...floating in the bottom of my soup bowl. a spider. dead,but still a spider. and it wasn't too small either. out of all the people who could have had that bowl of soup!! yeah,my mom insisted that it was a clump of roots or something. oh,but no...the roots were legs. uuuuuh. but we got our meals free,so..i guess that was cool. anyway,moral: just check out your soup at o'charlie's before ya eat it.
oh..if you haven't seen pride & prejudice,please go see it. it's wonderful...i wanna live a love story! |
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